Hi, I am currently attending a small private Christian college in Mississippi and I am absolutely miserable. I want to finish out this year and then transfer, I just can't decide what is the best option for me. I went to a small private Christian high school for 12 years and this college feels exactly the same. That's definitely one of the reasons that I'm unhappy because I thought college would be a change which it isn't for me. Another big reason that nothing has changed is that I'm still living at home at commuting. That makes it so hard to meet people especially because I'm really shy anyway. And the people here seem only to stick to the people they met at orientation or who lives in their dorm hall. I'm definitely involved, I'm on the newspaper and yearbook and am in a sorority and the Honors program. No matter how much I tell myself that some people would kill to have what I do, I just can't shake the feeling that I don't belong there. I need to live for enough away from home that I can live on campus because my parents will absolutely not let me otherwise and I feel I really need to immerse myself in that "college experience." There is another college in my town that is a lot bigger which is what I feel I need but it would still be the same social situation and I would still be unhappy at home. The main problem is this: when I was searching for a college in high school, I fell in love with Rhodes College and it still has my heart. I feel like no matter where I go I will compare it to there even though it is a similar small college. I'm so afraid that it will be exactly like where I am only worse because I will be a transfer student and lose an amazing scholarship that I have at my college now. I need a change because I am absolutely miserable and I feel dead inside where I am. I need to change something or I can not survive.
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