I go to a northeastern college, which wasn't my first choice. I wanted to go to a college in california, but my mother forced me to go the northeastern college because it is closer to home and because they gave me more financial aid. I didn't care about the financial aid because my dream was to go to a college in california. Ever since I arrived to the northeastern college, I have been unhappy even though I tried to be positive. Academic wise I think I am doing fine, but socially I am having a horrible time. I try to be outgoing even though I am shy and yet no one really wants to be friends with me. This school is big party school and I wish I can go out more but because I do not have friends and my roommate excludes me from everything I feel very alone. I call my mother at least 4x a day just so I can communicate with someone. And it makes me very sad that my high school friends are having a great time while I am sitting in my dorm do nothing. I feel bad but I always tell my mom that it is her fault why I am having a miserable time here because this was not the school that I wanted to go to, it has gotten to the point where she said I can transfer. I want to transfer but I fear that the same situation will happen wherever I go.
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